Assalamualaikum...

*for those loyal readers out there (if any) thousands apologize i begging you all for a very very long silence.

It's been a while from my last post. I'm sorry for taking so long to update my self here. 12 months might not a big number but it's enough to make my life goes up and down. Hu3. I hope its not too late to wish you Happy New Year 2011. Its just like a blink, I dont realized that Year 2010 is actually gone. A year that full of surprises, happiness and even disappointments. Congratulations to some of you who might have achieved all your wish lists and targets and maybe some of you not yet. As for New Year post, let me start doing a list of my Top 5: The most memorable moments in 2010.

1. Officially Un-Employed and Broke

It is a must to feel down when you cant get things that you want most (while it is possible before). After 5 yrs of being pampered by scholarship, now I'm broke. How does it feels when its so close but yet its too far. Year end sale doesn't make sense anymore. But i take it as a good start for me not to be such a big spender (and it works). Ha3.

2. Of Thinkplus and Arabians

Alhamdulillah, after 2 weeks doing nothing at home, i got a call from who-not-to be-named offering a part-time job as a consultant for Thinkplus. The best word to describe this job, we are acting as external HR. I've got such a wonderful experience while working for this company. Almost half of the staffs are my colleagues and we had chance to go outstation where we took it as a graduation vacation. =)

3. Divorced

Let me tell you the story about the call that change my destiny. Remember, everyday is not Sunday. A call that i expect to be a good news turned out differently. The fact that I've been released by my scholarship founder is just not break my heart but my parents' hope too. I can accept the fact that I'll not working with any of Petronas subs since I've heard about this situation from seniors before, but the hardest part is to make them understand the scenario. Quite a tough period, but Alhamdulillah, I get myself up in a short time. From now on, I'm on my own feet. How hard it is, I've to go through it no matter what happen.

4. The Hunting

The grass may be greener on the other side of the fence but u still have to mow it. Going for interviews, career fairs, sign up to Jobstreet and seeking for a job is such a valuable experience i ever had. This is what i dreamt before, seeking for a job by myself. But i didn't dreamt it would be this hard.

5. The Lost

2010 could be one of the sadest year of my life . I lost my closest, bestest and tremendous uncle in my life.

a day of ketuk2 bonang~
never taught it will end up with this wonderful night..

It has been a while i didn't post anything on my blog. Being busy for a while finish up my final presentation, pending weekly reports, as well as my very final report. Alhamdulillah, now it comes to the end of my Internship program also known as my 'honeymoon' time. Sobbing. I hope it is not too late to wish you all Happy New Year 2009. May Allah will bless us now and forever. Amin.

Btw, there are lots of things happened recently either it is expected or not. some of it brighten my days, gave joyness but some of it is very painful to be imagined. This is what we called life i guess. A journey that full of colors and melody. like a stage. You can be the actor or either the director of the play. Also like a slice of pizza, u need to taste every bites of it.

2009 shall be a great journey since it is my Final Year Semester. Alhamdulillah, I make it eventhough it's hard to believe i am away from my interest. This year could be the thoughest year ever in my life. Graduating during economy crisis could be a challenge for me too. But who knows. Just treasure every moment of the journey that shall be a part of of this life.

New Year means my wishlist expending. Yes, Manusia tidak pernah puas. I agreed with that. Eventhought there are my wishes already fulfill during this internship, but it increasing parallel to the desire. Ha ha ha ha. Btw, again, lets pray for the best for this new year 2009. Wachhaaaa!!

I'm sitting here in the boring room
its cold, sleepy and alone..
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
its friday actually people rushed out ..to catch up the works load..but
I'm wasting my time
browsing, scrolling, searching for nothing..
I got nothing to do
too lazy to finish up all the works..
I'm hanging around
looking for food downstairs, looking for handsome if there has any..
I'm waiting for you
to buzz, to call, to MSG ...
But nothing ever happens and I wonder
ur phone was out of battery, or maybe out of credit..
hurm..

I wonder how
to waste my time...
I wonder why
this internship make me more and more lazy..but why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
when i look at my window..its dark outside..raining i guess
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree

I'm turning my head up and down
its good for my sleepy head...
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
until i got headache
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
dreaming all day long
I miss the power
of sleep that can kill all...
I'd like to go out taking a shower
but i just take it this morning...
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
confused to make a decision..
I feel so tired
of waiting for nothing...
Put myself into bed
just imagine about it..since i still at my office..
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder
when the clock will show the time at five..

*i addicted to this song..read the lyrics

Desir pasir di padang tandus
Segersang pemikiran hati
Terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekadar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

reff:
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

repeat reff

Ketika ku bersujud

its hot over here. not only because of the chicks, but also the weather. hu3.

i went for DFE Raya Celebration yesterday again, at Flamingo by the Lake, Ampang. Our arrival was welcomed by the seeding engineers with their sweet smiles and cute face. Thank you. Eventhough we're stuck in the traffic jam about 30 minutes, but we managed to be there right on time. 8.30 am sharp. No surprise since i left my home about 7.00 o'clock in the morning. Walla.. And it supposed to be half an hour from my house. hurmm.. 'we' here refer to Naza(thanks for being so generous of driving us to the hotel), sarah, iman and Bella(thanks for providing us the transport).

Eventhough i didn't recognize anyone there,opss, not really, maybe most of them, even my boss only got to know me last two weeks, (kesian kan kan kan) but i still can felt the warm of the celebration. at registration table, we were given a door gift by the committee of the event. Thank you again.
Lets talk a bout the food part, i only can give 2 stars out of 5. The saying said, dont judge a book by its cover. Taste it first before you say any words. Thats what i was doing and it end up with only a plate of food. The only meal that i like was the rendang and fruits. Yg lain? Average.

The celebration was introducing the DFE band, who performed Collection of Lagu2 Raya, Rock Kapak, and special welcome to wanna be Malaysia's Jason Marz singing I'm Yours. The most outstanding performance. Sangat best itu pasti. Unfortunately, i dont know who's the singer. Plz do send my regards to him. He3.

This Aidilfitri was a blast. Im very grateful of being a part of this event. It gather the seniors and juniors. It mingled the bosses and the employees. It was a chance to get to know people around us. The most important is, it was a free eating on Wednesday. hu3..Kidding. =) Raya itu sebulan. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Forgive me body and soul. Peace no war. =P

Mungkin ini yang pertama dan bukan yang terakhir....

Di suatu mlm yang indah, ditemani gerimis halus membasahi Swift 5887, tanpa paluan kompang dan rebana, empat sekawan meluncur laju menuju ke teratak ilmu nun jauh di tronoh, Perak. Walau pelbagai rintangan dan dugaan yang dialami di siang hari (mcm xleh cuti ngn bos, keje belambak, jalan jam etc), empat sekawan tetap tersenyum manis girang ketawa sambil menanam tekad di hati masing-masing untuk meneruskan pelayaran yang sudah hampir lima purnama ditinggalkan dengan cemerlang dan jayanya. Doa dipohon agar pelayaran dapat diteruskan tanpa gangguan dari anasir luar yang menyimpan dendam dan iri hati.

Masih segar dalam ingatan empat sekawan, sebermula dengan satu persidangan yang ringkas, kerawitan ini tekad untuk melayari lautan api yang mungkin bisa menenggelami bahtera ini. Begitu payah sekali bahtera ini sukar dibina. Dengan badai yang menimpa-nimpa (mcm Ibu Sani x reply email, postpond tarikh, sponsor x cukup and etc) namun, kerawitan ini tidak mudah putus harapan. Dengan kebijaksanaan dan ketokohan yang hebat, seorang pemuda gagah dan tanggungjawab, telah menjadi nakhoda dan mengemudi pelayaran ini (credit to En. Mad). Sang nakhoda dimakhotakan dan diberi sepersalinan lengkap nakhoda gagah.

Sauh ditarik, kemudi diputar dan layar dinaikkan. Sang nakhoda mula mengarahkan para kerawitan meneruskan pelayaran. Bahtera mula membelah lautan meredah ombak samudera menuju ke Pulau Jawa yang memetakan Yogyakarta dalam peta dunia. Setiap ahli kerawitan mula menjalankan tanggungjawab memainkan alunan muzik yang bisa membuatkan hati-hati para penduduk sekitar terpegun dan terkesima. Tekad di hati masih satu, melahirkan yang terbaik untuk tatapan warga teratak ilmu yang disayangi juga negara yang tercinta.

Samudera yang luas mula diselami untuk mencari harta-harta karun dan khazanah berharga yang tersembunyi jauh di dasarnya. Borobodur juga dilawati agar tidak menyesali di kemudian hari. Kraton yang mungkin tidak pernah diketahui kewujudan nya juga disinggahi. Syukur, teman-teman dari dunia berbeda sungguh bermurah hati membuka pintu Malioboro buat kerawitan ini yang sungguh menagih kan harta-harta di sana. Kerawitan mengorak langkah pantas dan bertenaga mencari pelbagai sumber berkenaan Yogyakarta untuk dijadikan kenang-kenangan mungkin pahatan di hari mendatang. (Credit to Syazwan, Zul, Aisyah, Rupa, Re'an, Ain, Marzuki, Kecik, Amru, Faris and etc). Teman-teman semua sudah terpahat di dalam hati empat sekawan khususnya.


Para kerawitan yang diamanahkan tetap sedia dengan pengetuk di tangan, mengalunkan lagu, membunyikan irama, membetuk satu rasa yang bisa meninggalkan kesan hingga ke lubuk sanubari. Rasa gementar dilempar jauh, rasa penat dilontar ketepi.


Namun, bahtera ini harus meneruskan pelayaran pulang membawa harta-harta juga ilmu-ilmu yang bisa diturunkan kepada kerawitan seterusnya. Setelah berhempas pulas tenaga mengharungi lautan ini, akhirnya apa yang dihajati terlaksana. Sauh dilabuhkan, dan layar diturunkan. Para kerawitan harus meneruskan urusan-urusan yang sudah ditinggalkan selama lima siang yang mungkin tidak dapat digantikan dengan apa jua ingatan. Cuma, coretan potret dari kotak-kotak lensa bisa menyimpan memori ini untuk di kongsi bersama teman-teman yang lain. Sesungguhnya, Cintaku Tertinggal Di Yogyakarta.

p/s: do check this website for detail
http://melayuonline.com/news/?a=b05Ucy91UGlaM1ZBY2E%3D=

Why I like this Raya so much!!!

At first, my family planned to celebrate this Raya in KL. So, not much preparation we had here. But then, everyone of us were complaining about this raya and eager to go back to our hometown -Dungun. its last minute decision. So, the North-South Highway got additional 2 more cars and increased their income for toll fees. He3. We arrived there the night before Raya. Because there was no baju raya for this time, i had to borrow my mom's jubah for 1st day of raya. ha3. it was my 1st time wearing the jubah. and the funny thing was the kids were scarred of us because the way we dressed up..


mcm taliban kn?

hu3..but Raya is not over yet eventhough we came back to KL.
A week after that, i had a convoy Raya that really made me crazy. i managed to go to 6 houses in a day. There were 32 of us convoy by 8 cars from Ampang to Bangi..This Raya was a blast!! It was a chance for us to meet each other after 4 months having our internship program which was scattered us miles away...

Thousands of apologies for all my wrong deeds,
my bad words and my jokes that might be hurt you..
Here's me wishing you all the treasured moments of happiness on Aidilfitri and always..

Salam Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin

I don't know if this incident ever happened to you guys or not. But it happened to me this morning. Maybe there are lots of incidents happened in the train, but this one is really meant something to me. You can judge or say anything about my post. But i would like to share this feeling with you guys.
As usual, i went to LRT station since this is the best option for me to reach my workstation. It's not like yesterday, there are so many people at the station. So i need to queue for a quit long time. I take it as dugaan bulan puasa. I know Allah always test His slave. Suddenly, i heard something that really caught my attention. i tried to find where is the sound came from. Few seconds after that, the next train arrived. Luckily, i managed to get in the train. Alhamdulillah. And guess what? The sound that i heard before is came from a girl. She's wearing baju kurung with tudung. I can say that she's an ordinary person. Not really pretty but she's not ugly. Cute but not baby face. Average. She's reciting the Al-Quran. She stands just next to me. i taught she's going to end her recitation when she got in but she kept continue it even they're lots of people pushing to get in.
Insaf. Yes, she recited the Al-Quran all the way, page by page. It really put something on me. She reminds me on the cassettes that the surau in my neighborhood played it during Ramadhan and also during subuh. Listen to her recitation, made me calm. Soft and nice. I still remember what my Ustadz told me back to my high school. "If you can make people touched only by reciting the Al-Quran, u couldn't imagine how much the rewards that you will get". She also reminds me on my mistakes. Like a meditation for me. All things that I've done suddenly came out of my mind. On this opportunity, I would like to apologize to those who know me, to you who's reading right now, to KAMU, sorry for giving you the hard time all this while, and to everyone that i ever spoke to..

Previously, im not interested of reading the forward msg or email even from my friends. But i dont know how, i got this strong heart feeling about this email. and my heart proved it was right. This email almost made me cried and im really touched. as i mention before, when u read something and made u stop and think, u want to share it with people dat u care about..

Orang kata aku lahir dari perut ibu..
Bila dahaga, yang susukan aku.. ibu
Bila lapar, yang suapkan aku...ibu
Bila keseorangan, yang sentiasa di sampingku.. ibu
Kata ibu, perkataan pertama yang aku sebut.. Ma!
Bila bangun tidur, aku cari.. ibu
Bila nangis, orang pertama yang datang ..ibu
Bila nak bermanja.. aku dekati ibu
Bila nak bergesel… aku duduk sebelah ibu
Bila sedih, yang boleh memujukku hanya ibu
Bila nakal, yang memarahi aku …ibu
Bila merajuk… yang memujukku cuma..ibu
Bila melakukan kesalahan… yang paling cepat marah..ibu
Bila takut… yang tenangkan aku.. ibu
Bila nak peluk… yang aku suka peluk..ibu

Aku selalu teringatkan ..Ibu
Bila sedih, aku mesti talipon… Ibu
Bila seronok… orang pertama aku nak beritahu…Ibu
Bila bengang.. aku suka luah pada ..Ibu
Bila takut, aku selalu panggil.. "ibuuuuuuuuuuuuu! "
Bila sakit, orang paling risau adalah ..Ibu
Bila nak exam, orang paling sibuk juga Ibu
Bila buat hal, yang marah aku dulu..Ibu
Bila ada masalah, yang paling risau.. Ibu
Yang masih peluk dan cium aku sampai hari ni.. Ibu
Yang selalu masak makanan kegemaranku. . Ibu
Yang selalu simpan dan kemaskan barang-barang aku, Ibu
Yang selalu berleter kat aku.. Ibu
Yang selalu puji aku.. Ibu
Yang selalu nasihat aku.. Ibu
Bila nak kahwin..
Orang pertama aku tunjuk dan rujuk… Ibu

Aku ada pasangan hidup sendiri
Bila seronok… aku cari pasanganku
Bila sedih… aku cari Ibu
Bila berjaya… aku ceritakan pada pasanganku
Bila gagal… aku ceritakan pada Ibu
Bila bahagia, aku peluk erat pasanganku
Bila berduka, aku peluk erat Ibuku
Bila nak bercuti… aku bawa pasanganku
Bila sibuk… aku hantar anak ke rumah Ibu
Bila sambut valentine.. Aku hadiahi bunga pada pasanganku
Bila sambut hari ibu…
aku cuma dapat ucapkan Selamat Hari Ibu
Selalu ….. aku ingat pasanganku
Selalu… Ibu ingat kat aku
Bila..bila… aku akan talipon pasanganku
Entah bila.. …aku nak talipon Ibu
Selalu …aku belikan hadiah untuk pasanganku
Entah bila... aku nak belikan hadiah untuk Ibuku

Renungkan:

"Kalau kamu sudah habis belajar dan berkerja... bolehkah kamu kirim wang untuk Ibu? Ibu bukan nak banyak... lima puluh ringgit sebulan pun cukuplah". Berderai air mata aku. Hari ini kalau Ibu mahu lima ratus sebulan pun aku mampu. Aku boleh kirimkan. Tapi Ibu sudah tiada.Aku tidak berkesempatan lagi.. bukan lima puluh ringgit.. lima puluh sen pun tidak sempat aku kirimkan! Hanya yang termampu ku kirimkan adalah doa dan amalan baik di dunia yang fana ini...

Maybe after this i will read all the forward msg from u guys.. lots of things we should share rite!

p.s: sesungguh nye, syurga itu terletak di bawah telapak kaki ibu.. lots of LOVE from me to all ibu out there..

p.s: a song for sahabat

wahh!! its been a while i didn't post anything on my blog.. Ha3..i guess its not too late to wish u all Happy Eid Ramadhan.. Semoga Ramadan kali ni lebih bermakna dr tahun2 lepas yer!!

For those yg first time celebrate Ramdhan kt overseas tu.. Epul and Mizah, i wish both of you good luck okey..hu3..i bet u guys will be missed bazar at utp rite? and for me, this Ramadhan is not as same as previous years.. if last year pergi bazar dkt UTP, this year pegi bazar dkt gombak..ha3.. but if last year pegi bazar dgn kwn2, this year i went there with my sister, if last year balik umah bukak puase dgn mama and abah, this year balik umah after keje bukak pose dgn kakak jer.. :( why? because they went to Mecca for Umrah.. Alhamdulillah..

So, for the moment..its only me my brother and my sis at home. on the first day without parents kt rumah, we are so rajin for cooking. ayam masak kicap pon jd best. next day, tom yam, ikan masak 3 rasa...wahh..sume pon best..sbb bli kt kedai. kitorg just masak nasi!hu3. and come to the fifth day..no mood to sahur at all because we were suffering of diarrhea..so for this sahur, we just eat 1 set of sandwish with peanut butter and watermellon... sob sob sob..for berbuka..we just buy whatever we want to eat. only one meal and 2 types of kuih. thats it..

first time rse fully housewife. laundry, house cleaning, cooking, and buy the groceries? hu3..it is a wonderful experience. but PUASE is not an excuse to excape wahatever we supposed to do. i would like to take this opportunity to thank all housewifes in the world for doing a great job..and i admire them all.. I LUV U ALL MAMAs!!!