Assalamualaikum...

*for those loyal readers out there (if any) thousands apologize i begging you all for a very very long silence.

It's been a while from my last post. I'm sorry for taking so long to update my self here. 12 months might not a big number but it's enough to make my life goes up and down. Hu3. I hope its not too late to wish you Happy New Year 2011. Its just like a blink, I dont realized that Year 2010 is actually gone. A year that full of surprises, happiness and even disappointments. Congratulations to some of you who might have achieved all your wish lists and targets and maybe some of you not yet. As for New Year post, let me start doing a list of my Top 5: The most memorable moments in 2010.

1. Officially Un-Employed and Broke

It is a must to feel down when you cant get things that you want most (while it is possible before). After 5 yrs of being pampered by scholarship, now I'm broke. How does it feels when its so close but yet its too far. Year end sale doesn't make sense anymore. But i take it as a good start for me not to be such a big spender (and it works). Ha3.

2. Of Thinkplus and Arabians

Alhamdulillah, after 2 weeks doing nothing at home, i got a call from who-not-to be-named offering a part-time job as a consultant for Thinkplus. The best word to describe this job, we are acting as external HR. I've got such a wonderful experience while working for this company. Almost half of the staffs are my colleagues and we had chance to go outstation where we took it as a graduation vacation. =)

3. Divorced

Let me tell you the story about the call that change my destiny. Remember, everyday is not Sunday. A call that i expect to be a good news turned out differently. The fact that I've been released by my scholarship founder is just not break my heart but my parents' hope too. I can accept the fact that I'll not working with any of Petronas subs since I've heard about this situation from seniors before, but the hardest part is to make them understand the scenario. Quite a tough period, but Alhamdulillah, I get myself up in a short time. From now on, I'm on my own feet. How hard it is, I've to go through it no matter what happen.

4. The Hunting

The grass may be greener on the other side of the fence but u still have to mow it. Going for interviews, career fairs, sign up to Jobstreet and seeking for a job is such a valuable experience i ever had. This is what i dreamt before, seeking for a job by myself. But i didn't dreamt it would be this hard.

5. The Lost

2010 could be one of the sadest year of my life . I lost my closest, bestest and tremendous uncle in my life.

Is it true certain date gives certain meaning in our life? people said that 08-08-08 is very 'ong' number. Feng-shui believes in this. and i believe there are many people out there take this opportunity to celebrate their weddings, farewell, honeymoon or maybe did something awful for memoir of their lives. i listen to the radio this morning otw to my office and, how lucky this girl because she's going to celebrate her 20th birthday today.. meaning, her birthday is on 08-08-88. what a beautiful number!! but for me, what i know today is the launch of Olympic in Beijing and thats all. nothing interesting happens today accept one thing.. macob is here! OMG, it's been a while we didn't meet each other and yes, this gathering is full of emotional, exciting and sadness. we talk and talk like we'll never meet again..and the short meeting really gives a relief for us to catch up and share our trainee's life. and not to forget, kenny and imah also were there...

the sad part, today is my last day to have Mrs. Sri Wangi as my supervisor. she's going to resign from PETRONAS and accept other offer which is more advantageous for her..and i do agree with her choice. being with her for this 2 months is a very enjoyable period. she taught me a lot and be such a good friend to me. .but i do accept, setiap pertemuan pasti ade PERPISAHAN.. no matter how much we like sumbody, love sumbody, one day we must let them go..inilah hidup. Kan?

Everyday checking on CIMB clicks finally worth it. Nothing can describe your feelings when you saw the number is changed with add up of rm500 of your savings. Alhamdulillah, thanks to PCSB for the tips. hu3. But this amount is just for a temperory..it only last for couple of days..ha3. giler sakilah. such a big spender i am. he3. but i spent it for good. and shahir, wanna know about Cherry rite? he3..here she is..

OMG, its been a while i didn't post anything on my blog. first is because there's nothing interesting I can share about for last few weeks, secondly, I'm so lazy to turn on my lappy during weekends, third, I'm so addicted to sleep and forth, I'm very into my Cherry -feeding her, cleaning her cage, talk to her and everything is about her. He3. Being at home for a month is enough to gain ur weight, get double chin, pimples, and one for most, sleep at 8.00pm.ha3. so, when i read uruk's status at ym, i definitely get excited. it has been 2 long I'm not playing futsal or tennis bcz its hard to gather people and get a free court for tennis..at least a cheap one.he3. so i joined them playing futsal last night and guess what..they choose Bangi which is out of my mind!!! jauh tuhhhhhhhhhh..who are them? (pra, bawan, nik, kema, eni, jijo, uruk, gedo, nani, king, md no, and kwn pra)..hurmm...but, thanks to uruk cz organized this futsal..i really enjoyed it.. :-) First 10 minutes, I can run from one goal post to another goal post. i am overzealous. excited until i get tired. really tired. i can feel there's pain everywhere. every joint on my body. OMG, it shows that I have to do something with it. I used to run around the football field for 4 times but now only 10 minutes on game? no no no...ha3. terlebih sudah. overall, futsal sgt best. thanks to pra cz take me home with ur new wife =) bersukan sgt bgs utk kesihatan. i wake 'early' in da morning with joint pain and urat saraf....

How he looks like? Do he still recognize me? What should i talk to him? Should i start the conversation first? Let me tell you a story that change my destiny. destiny? ha3. No la.. change my plan. he3. What is your reaction when someone call you and said that he want to meet you but.. it has been 10 years ago you don't see him. Jeng3. What is your expectation when you go to see him? What if he thinks that you are a boring person? What if he thinks that you've changed? What if he still expect the OLD you? Wondering...hu3.

Never think that a joke becomes real. This is how the story. Today is my second day at Great Eastern Mall. Been attached to the project there. So, my training will be there for this 8 months onwards. Babes, lepak2 kat Great Eastern Mall la plak..hu3. Our lunch hour is at 1.00pm. As usual, I'll be texting my friend from RNZ to wait for me for lunch at 11.30. Suddenly, my phone was ringing 25 minutes later. And thats it. Unexpected one. What a surprise? Two words can describe my feelings. Excited and nervous. OMG, he's OTW. ha3. But I am who I am. Not really care what people think. Just be the real me. he3.

We have our lunch at my place, bcz i only have one hour- to eat, to chat, to be nervous, to gossip, to toilet, and to meet him. ha3. We never stop chatting while eating. Lie. We are very friendly. True. Hu3. During our conversation, i realize the butterfly is gone. I dont feel nervous anymore. He still the same. Nothing to be nervous pon. We talk and talk like there is no tomorrow. Eventhough 1 hour cannot cover 10 years stories, but at least we update each other. I am happy to see him actually. I appreciate our friendship. Thanks to You. How much friend means a lot to me.

I read this from one site. If they are scared of you when you need help, sorry, that's not friendship. If their attitude is "for better or worse," if they stick by you through thick and thin, that's when you can tell it's friendship. I do have some friends, but not as many as I thought. A friend will tell you when he or she thinks you're full of shit, but always casts it that way, never as a statement of fact. Hurm..

After 10 years, he still my friend. Glad to see you. =)

Being in the office on my first day is not that awkward. I still can find my course mates in my own department, got briefing which gather all of us (UTP trainees) and such an ice breaking which was a common thing that introduced our selves to the seniors (who are also the UTP students).
But when you have to sit down and do your readings is a weird thing because it such like my study week back then in UTP...
when you have to wake up early in the morning (6.30 am) is a weird thing since it has been awhile i didn't woke up this early.. the last time is in SEMASHUR I guess....
you have to wait until 1pm for lunch is a weird thing since it has been awhile I didn't tied with this schedule...
you have to dress up formally is a weird thing since I only wear jeans and slippers to my class...
But what i can summarize here is, all my daily life has to change back to my old boarding school. SEMASHUR. At this moment, I wonder what my friends doing after about 6 months they fly to overseas. Syaque, Fana, Shahir, and Nab. Not to forget Epul and Mizah. Make sure you come here and visit me at KLCC when you guys came back to Malaysia...
Im writing this post during working hours in KLCC. NO SKIP. But doing 'research' in PETRONAS Resource Centre. (Boss, dont scold me!!). Ha3. Actually, i dont have any yet. Shes out for site visit or something...
Opps, gtg. Later~

OMG, It was late. My hand quickly reached my hand phone and start to text Awin:

"Awin, dh bgn blum. Ak br bgn..so myb lmbt sket yek. Msg ak dlu b4 grak taw".


Yes, I got plan. Since my scholarship dh masuk, so I plan to go out with Awin. Why? Because we didn't go out for shopping since Bandung trip. (That was last semester break daaa... ) Itu sangat lama. Hu3. So, here we go. One Utama. Since there is the best mall for us to shop. Easy and worth it. Even though the beginning is not that fun, because we got the wrong way, stuck in traffic jam for half an hour, have to make a call for rescue, round the same round about for at least 4 times, but finally we reached there after 2 hours drive. ( it actually takes 20 minutes from my home to OU.LOL.) Ha3.

So, after stuck in the car for almost 2 hours, the very first place that we catch up is Shogun. Its not a place such a karaoke box or something but it is a food restaurant which serve up the sushi buffet, western, and etc. It worth it with RM 40++ to eat that kind of meals, but unfortunately our stomach cannot accommodate too much food. Ha3. (Itu tipu..). After one hour we spent our time there, we start the shopping thing.

You wont believe it if i said that we shop from top to toe. We got sandals, we got pants, we got belt, we got dress. Ha3. it was fun when u spent your money. But at the end, when look at your purse and see only blue sheets, its not fun anymore. I broke. Ha3. Shopping is a fun thing!!

I'm waiting for next month scholarship!!

=)

“Thank you for your patience. You may leave the hall now.” – The Invigilator.

That’s how the end of this semester. The super duper hectic semester. The tiring one. Ups and downs. But lots of memories. Though, I didn’t feel anything. No exited-ness? Happy? Far from it. Usually, I’m the happiest person in the world when it comes to the very last-final-paper. But dis semester is different. When the invigilator announced to put down your pen, the very first thing that came out of my mind is “OMG, Im going for intern dh after dis.No way!!"”..No more final paper for another 8 months!! Wow!! –still no sense. I’m supposed to be happy bcz the paper is not that tough. (But it doesn’t mean that I can answer it with flying colors. Just so-so. Hu3). So, I went to my room with no feelings. Just hoping that it would change when I met my friends.

“Oh, Imah and Lisa. Kte dh abes paper dh!!” shouting to them excitedly but it sounds freaky. The emotion and intonation didn’t match each other. Ishk, nape x rase ape2 ni? Tlg la!! Dh abes exam kottttt…I taught I’m the only one that feeling that way, but its not true. I share this feeling with my friends too. (Imah, Macob, Lisa…) hurm… hoping that it would change again when the night comes…

A-Night-With-Them
Eventhough it takes like 1 hour to gather all of us (me, lisa, nadia, imah, telok, pisem, hasrol a.k.a ayob, abu, shisha, gedo, majin, mok, and zali), but it really changed my mood for the day. We heading to McDonald’s since everybody were starving and didn’t take our dinner yet. Kami adalah muka2 tegar McD. So jgn tanye kenape McD. Ha3. It looks like almost every week we’ll spend our time at McD to have sundae ice-creams. Nyummyyy~

Lepaking, chatting, while eating was nice. It’s really fun when we started to talk heart to heart about our last2 moment.

“Nnti bile dh kt Labuan tu make sure sume pon pakai webcam”- Abu

“Nnti aku kt Kerteh nnti korg kene slalu visit aku taw!!”- Nadia a.ka. Macob

“Nnti kt Kerteh mane ade internet la Macob!!” – Telok

“Nnti kt JnJ aku sesorg dowh!”- Lisa

“Aku nk kurus intern ni!!” – Anonymous

Continue with photo shooting. Posing. And the very common thing -- Discuss what we’re going to do next. Again, it takes about 1 hour to decide where to go, what to do, who’s differ, who’s agree, who’s x kesah, mane2 pon boley. Aku okey jer.- u know who’s this guy...Ha3. Then, it was karok session since no one point out other ideas. Then, here it goes, three cars moving together heading to Shogun Batu Gajah.

On the way, I’ve a serious conversation with mok and zali talking about our internship.. rumah sewa.. and kerja? How much I felt like im too old to talk about these matters. Kalau dlu, asyik dgr seniors jer ckp psl ni.. hu3. Then, we spent like 2 hours at Shogun. I can see how talented my friends singing Awie’s and Ella’s songs!! Mok, I luv ur voice. Ha3. Nti duet lagi yer… Guess what? We select about 50 songs for that night… but unfortunately, we cant finished them all bcz the Shogun guy already give us warning by blinking the lamp! Crazy night…

Then, we heading to UTP. On the way, we fetch at Ameeth for the very last time before we go for internship. There, I met my KEMBARA friends. They just finished their meeting. How I really feel that I’m gonna miss them lots. We climb the mountains together, we spent our time at mapley together, we go for dinner together, and we have our futsal league together. It almost 3 years I know them and most of them are final year students. So, I’ll not see them after I coming back from internship. Gonna miss u guys…

Then, after eating and chatting about one hour, we decide to go back UTP. But, some of us came out with their crazy idea. They want to go to Lumut. They want to watch the sun rise. Ho ho ho. Very interesting idea but I cannot join them since I didn't finished yet packing all my bags and things. So sad. But I really enjoy the moment we spent together. Here I wanna say thank you sooooo much to all my friends for cherish my days, thank you too all seniors who help me lots in my studies and to survive in UTP. I’m sorry for all my wrong deeds. Hope to see you all during ur convocation day. I’ll come, Insyaallah since my sis also graduate as u r. That’s it. Good bye my friends. See you when I see you. Adios, amigos. Sayonara. Taaa~

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

Thank you.

“Kalau jadi bukit, what can I do?”

“Boley jadi kaye ke?” (whisper )

I’m pretty sure that every single of you have heard about this words. I used to have lots of piggybanks but not even one is full. I have this experience, when I broke my watermelon-piggybank just because to buy an ice-cream. So, from that day, I never use piggybank anymore to save my coins/money because it would be difficult whenever I want to buy something that I want. Kenape x mintak je ngan mak?à Skip that part..hu3. :)

And when I’m 12, my brother gives me a piggybank with a padlock for my achievement in UPSR. (I’ll never forget about it). Thank you bro. U r the best!!:D So, I guess this is good because I wont broke my piggybank anymore because it has padlock. And for your information, it almost 9 years but I still kept the piggybank with me. And it’s here. Right in front of me. He he he.

Last semester, I got this inspiration from my roommate. She has lots of coins. And she inspired me to do so. Do I have to mention her name? Hu3. Okey la.. Her name is Nur Amnanie and people called her Nanie. Looking at her money, I become jealous and I came out with this idea. Whenever I have lunch or dinner, I won’t use my coins. I’ll save it in my piggybank so that I’ll see the outcome. And after about 10 months, TARAAAAAAAAAA…. My piggybank is full. I wonder how much is in it. Is it 50 bucks? Or 100 bucks? Or more than that? I don’t know because I still waiting till the end of this semester to count it. Can’t wait. He3. :D

This is an achievement for me because I never done it before. I’m excited, nervous, ambitious and waiting for the time to count it. So, for this time being, I’m wondering about what I am going to do with the money. I’m thinking to buy something valuable, memorable, and usable and have sentimental value. I want it to be something special that will remains in my memories.

So here people, I need your suggestions and ideas. What should I buy with 100 bucks in my hand?

Handbag- I don’t think the money is enough for a handbag.

Wallet – I just got it for my birthday present.

Dress/shirt – it will not remain forever. Common.

Shoes – Hurmm…boring. :P

Books? – interesting.

What else??? What can we get with 100 bucks?? Think... and think… and think..

Now I realize, I always said that I don’t have money. But actually, when I’ve money, I don’t know how to use it. Most of my scholarship I spent for food. Food and food and food. I enjoy eating!!! Ha ha ha. So, help me out with this friends. I really appreciate it. Thanks. Adios. :)

I move on from my not-really-user-friendly friendster blog to here. Hope it will be better than the previous one. It’s been awhile from my last entry… I guess I didn’t have ideas to write in this blog. Let see how it works..

Here it goes. A new start of my writing.

Hi Readers, (if I have any),

I guess this is my new start for blogging. Its already 6.10 early in the morning but I still can’t sleep. (Looking at my comfy bed. Soundless). It might be because of a glass of white coffee iced that I took like three hours ago..(mapley oh mapley). This is exam week and I supposed to study. Books on the table, notes like everywhere.. what a messy room u can imagine. I cannot read or study for my final exam at all. I think I’m too lazy, not in the mood and I’m not sleepy. zZzzZZzz. My attention is only to my black-shiny lappy~. So, I guess writing is the best way to spend my time with.

This semester means a lot to me. I’ve learnt lots of things, involve in several events and the best part when I met new friends. Start with Gamelan, and then Euphonious, 4-wheel drive, EDX, and UTP Tennis Open. All these events really left lots of memories in my diaries of life. Thanks to my parents and buddies who are always be by my side through up and down, thanks to my friends who teach me lots of things, thanks to all people around me... You made every seconds in my life very precious. Thank you very much. I can see how my life changed. I’m not a little girl anymore. I’ve to decide my own path, my own choice to lead my future. Too serious right? Hu hu hu. Just pretend to be an adult. Hu hu hu. I still luv ice creams. Don’t worry. I don’t know what I’m thinking right now but someone told me that, keep writing and you’ll feel better. So, this is a new start. I’ll keep writing and writing. I’ll come out with a new melody when I see you again. Catch you later blog!